when i first starting experimenting with drugs i found i quite liked md. i was shy, and not used to talking about my feelings - two things the drug remedies quite well. i rarely take it now because it's pretty exhausting and i've realised how empty the feelings are when you sober up.
just wondering what other people's experiences were with things, and if they've done similar things in an effort to try and 'feel' or 'improve' themselves in some way.
feelings are only empty if they have no meaning. Did they have no meaning when you spoke them, or just when you sobered up?
I would say they have meaning if you actually mean the reasoning behind them.
Also, if you have the reasoning for the feeling but you lack the ability to feel the feeling as well that's where I'd imagine these drugs would be cool? I don't really want to take drugs for this tho'
slushhhhy, you don't state specifically what the drugs did, but whatever it was seemed preferable to your normal state of being. People take prescription drugs "to feel better", but with the understanding that they have to keep taking them to feel better; i.e. they don't take the drugs to be cured. Illegal drugs should be viewed in the same light; you are taking them for a central effect, but that has to be weighed against side effects (and you'll still have Alexithymia).
Alexithymia - emotional blindness - is a personal trait which affects roughly 10% of the population.
Alexithymia describes the difficulty of people to perceive and describe emotions of others and themselves. Most persons concerned are not aware about this deficit and usually they are just recognizing it in contact with others, especially close friends, within their family or their partner.
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