Thema: No feelings

I am new to the board and in recent years I have been trying to figure myself out when i stumbled on this site. Let me start from the beginning. I always knew I was different from others when things would happen that caused others to be emotional but it never phased me. I have always been able to keep my composure no matter what would happen. Fast forward a few years later I joined the army and went to my first war. The first person I ended up killing in battle I never got that bleeding heart feeling. The only feeling that I got was when I was trying to find cover from the bullets. I spent a few more years going to conflict to conflict taken more lives that I want to think of and to this day I can remember their faces but I never lost a night sleep over it. Once I got out of the army I became a cop. Now I can go to a scene were people are crying and bleeding and whatever and it doesn't even phase me because I could really careless other then to do my job. I once thought I had what they call the warrior gene but at this point I don't know what it could be.