Topic: SERIOUS QUESTION

From my understanding, Alexithymia is a personality trait that can either be inherited or brought upon due to high amounts of trauma, and thus can't be treated with medication.

Hey, Alexi may not have a cure but they said you can take classes(?) or something to help you understand Alexi and you're emotions more

I go along with the trauma.

My mom "told" me how to feel. Internally I disagreed with her that I "should" feel what she is SAYING I should feel, but on the outside, I went along with it to keep from getting into trouble for having "wrong" (which they were NOT wrong, just different from her) feelings.

I have had to repress and fake it and pretend for so long that I really, cannot put words to my feelings. My mom doesn't get this. We are estranged. I'm ok with it.

Trauma makes sense to me. I had a variety of abuse growing up and then more in college and then in my marriage. And I am very disconnected most of the time. I have been in counseling off and on that never helped anything. Last summer I remember feeling something that I think was joy. I had a few months of real feelings and not just the extremes of crying and raging anger. With being retraumatized I lost the feelings connection, but it was a unique experience for me to have had.

Ok, I have seen many posts about the cause of alexithymia, and none of them apply to me. I scored a 155 on the test and I have never been traumatized, and no one in my family has this besides me.