I didn't know much about y'all. But my story being the usua, people and your friends leaving you when it got dark. Life decided to up the ante, even my parents are leaving me and don't understand how I work.
I can't enjoy loce, life or anything in between. To sum up I am alone, lost and forgotten.
Help please?
and your friends leaving you when it got dark some don't walk away... most people can't deal with things like that... that's the thing, so they do nothing, which is actually not good, but... one can't help it... it might be depression, a monster, an evil bitch, for sure... some weeks ago I would not have been able to write these lines . . .
it is good to talk to someone after all... I hope you can also find someone in real life... family also leaving is a bad thing, indeed... yet there are more people feeling (or not feeling) like that, than you may think... !
Nyar,
I'm sorry to hear that you feel this way. I can relate on a smaller level.
I often feel like the black sheep in my family. I realize that there is more to a person than what meets the eye, and this was confirmed for me on more than one occasion. However, this concept confuses me, because there are moments when I feel as if no one can understand (or make any sense of) the thoughts in my head; other times I feel completely transparent and exposed.
I also felt "abandoned" by my friends and my family members when I experienced a dark, intense confusion about my feelings and where they are coming from. Later in life, I realized that most of my friends & family were not the ones that left--it was me. I retreated within myself, not wanting to burden or irritate the people I loved. I'm trying to correct this habit.
One thing that's helped me in the past is volunteering. The one emotion that I can plainly see and understand in people is happiness, and when I'm helping others I think I feel it too. I know that I usually feel better afterward. I'm not sure where you're from, but park/trail/beach clean-ups are nice. It's a good workout and most people are surprised by the fact that there is not an immediate motive (i.e. school, legal penalties, a friend/family member, etc.). If you prefer to work alone or with one other person, maybe there are opportunities at your local library or a nearby senior center.
I hope this helped. Best of luck to you.
Nyar,
I'm sorry to hear that you feel this way. I can relate on a smaller level.
I often feel like the black sheep in my family. I realize that there is more to a person than what meets the eye, and this was confirmed for me on more than one occasion. However, this concept confuses me, because there are moments when I feel as if no one can understand (or make any sense of) the thoughts in my head; other times I feel completely transparent and exposed.
I also felt "abandoned" by my friends and my family members when I experienced a dark, intense confusion about my feelings and where they are coming from. Later in life, I realized that most of my friends & family were not the ones that left--it was me. I retreated within myself, not wanting to burden or irritate the people I loved. I'm trying to correct this habit.
One thing that's helped me in the past is volunteering. The one emotion that I can plainly see and understand in people is happiness, and when I'm helping others I think I feel it too. I know that I usually feel better afterward. I'm not sure where you're from, but park/trail/beach clean-ups are nice. It's a good workout and most people are surprised by the fact that there is not an immediate motive (i.e. school, legal penalties, a friend/family member, etc.). If you prefer to work alone or with one other person, maybe there are opportunities at your local library or a nearby senior center.
I hope this helped. Best of luck to you.
