Topic: help?

I just wrote out a huge life story, it took a while. computer issues. I'm not retyping it.
bullet points.

I'm 25
Difficulties fitting in
troubled upbringing
moved around a lot
suspected trauma as a child(a specialist in autism has said)
difficulties in relationships
Difficulties with emotions and others emotions.
I don't think and feel the same way others expect me too
substance abuse (though all of this was as been a constant before the cocaine) ( substance abuse was only a factor for about 8 months 2 years ago)
I have a 7-month-old son
two suicide attempts.
anxiety
depression
self harm
addiction to things not just illicit substances


I don't know what I want from this, I don't know what to write... I don't know much right now.

I guess I just want answers and more importantly I want someone to ask the right questions.