Topic: i want a relationship but could i have one?.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Alexithymia/comments/84t11t/avoidant_and_alexithymic/dw59ys7/

This discussion really addresses some concerns for us with relationships.

My sister had always told me how I have very little expression of my feelings. I've always had problem fitting into the society since primary school, I'm currently 24 and still having awkwardness in social situations altough on the outside, I look very much composed and can handle situations really well.

I've never had any romantic relationship as I don't feel interested in it despite having around 8 guys showing interest towards me throughout this 5 years in college. But everytime they open up, i just don't feel comfortable to even discuss about it, what more to give it a thought. I end up getting so confused as i'm not able to provide any answer so i decided to reject them instead.

Due to my lack of expression and having little care about what's going on in other people's mind, I'm viewed as someone who have self-proud and unfriendly.

What's worse is, I can't find any reason for me to love myself as i saw there are too many imperfections in me despite trying hard to improve.

My score is 136.
I tried to talk to a friend about this but i just got "no, you're not like that" as a reaction. And that's it.
Another friend just laughed and said "you and your emotionsless problem".

What should i do?
Is Alexi really a problem if i just keep it to myself? I mean, what else could go wrong?
I'm alone, help.

There is no margin of improvement in perfection.
I am 8 points more experienced than you.
After all, if emotions make human beings, then we, as machines, are also made by humans and human beings cannot do without us.

PS:Did you expect a better answer to the "emotionless problem"?