Topic: Thoughts, as I struggle through this....

Life is situations
to overcome

Problems
to solve

If something happens, I am the one moving toward it..
not entangled in thoughts, before moving

I can help if you are hurt
not as much if you're hurting.

I can carry you to safety if you are broken
but not lift your spirits

Often alone by my own design
I do not know loneliness.

I move quickly away from intense emotion
irrational behavior inevitably follows
irrational speech

An achievement is a task completed
on the way to the next
a task completed successfully is not momentous
but failures are not devastating, only another task.....

I miss social and personal cues...
and when I try to communicate to someone
that they are special to me
what I'm thinking comes out

Something is missing, perhaps
but I've stopped pursuing it
faking it
the world does not understand
I often feel invisible

I envy those who are able to elegantly communicate feelings
I pity those who are consumed in them

For a short time I can maintain a facade
And later regret living in that facade
it seems dishonest
making it the more difficult to initiate
contact again... perhaps ever

Is it broken
if it never worked?

But sometimes
I am greeted, and
somehow there is a connection
no matter how brief
it is in the eyes
perhaps they see the music